a day with,,,

not only a day with,,, (exactly) pengen everyday with,,,!! i publish the crazy man (haha, baca: pablis! jadi inget pembicaraan ma pacar beberapa menit lalu ni!).
this's a story,, unusual story for my life. okeh, love-life tepatnyaaaa.

he comes from MARS, setelah lama ngilang karena dijadiin sample makhluk bumi oleh alien2! (kek the X-FILE season si mulder di culik alien n ninggalin si scully dengan ketidakpastian,, fuiiih!). dia (bukan murder!!), orang yang sama bebrapa tahun lamanya yang pernah ada dan pengen banget selalu ada ketika gw 'jatoh' (terjun payung kaleeee). catch me n help me to stand in this crazy world (BERLEBIHAN ga si?).

dia yang diibaratkan a boy, buku tua, pikun, menyebalkan, dan such a lost memory,,, (halahh meuni loba gtu istilahnya!!). orang lama yang terasa baru bukan karena dia anak GAOL, ato sok kebarat-baratan! lebih ke 'dalemannnya' (ooops, jangan mikir 'daleman' dalam versi negative! oh no,,,). i mean 'daleman' disini sifat dia yang dlu gw kenal amat sangat berbeda dengan sekarang. pendiem?? ewww,,, ga deh! more than kek ibu2 yang mo bukaan 4! pemalu? mmmhmm, sedikit! but not in front of me tentunya!! it's ok, asal jangan malu-maluin deh!!

a day with this man,,, sangat interested!! nerima 'daleman' gw yang sesungguhnya (lagi2, please dont think negative about 'daleman'!! okeh?). honestly, i'm the selfish one, kadang menyebalkan, ga banyak ngomong sebenernya (lebih banyak nyusahin karena kerjaannya cuma bilang "o ya?", "ooo..", "hmmmmm,,"! so dia yang lebih banyak ngeluarin tenaga!!!).
a day with him,,, seems like program lama yang di upgrade ke versi terbaru. LEBIH KEREN, dari tampilan sampe 'daleman2nya' (nah, daleman disini lebih ke kecepatan dalam loading, and closing! halah, waeeeee,,, sok ngerti gini gw!!!).
a day with a boy yang memang udah bukan boy lagi,,, we both know that we're two people yang sama2 gengsi bilang I REALLY NEED U,,, (hihi, LEBAY!!).
a day with someone that i really want to spend lot of times,,, MENYEBALKAN SANGATHH if he always say "maaaaaapppppp" (please deh, bukan p! tapi F, say!!).
a day with this person i love,,, BIKIN KANGEN! apalagi after seharian jalan-jalan di SITU GEDE (yang pernah gw promosiin juga di blog ini)!!
a day with U, yang lagi on the way ke JOGJA buat kerja sambilan jadi asisten mamang becak (hehehe,, pisss),,, KEEP FIGHT!!! i'll be waiting here,,,!!!

PS: tampak bingung pengen nulis apa, sekedar menuhin blog ajahhh!
PS: ,,,,, luv my time with my bf!! please, not BLUE FILM!!! BF yang lain!!

THE OLD BOOK,,, not only a book!!

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It’s start from a book. The old book, saved at upper of my rack. A book, everytime I saw just made me hurt! And a book I never been able to throw it, even I really want to do that!!!
This time, without doubted, I open this old book. Page by page,,, don’t care that it’s gonna make me hurt more. A book I finally read not just a cover or conclusion (only). Now, I read every word.
Lot of things unexpected, this book so excited. Every page I read gonna make me laugh. Full of fun. So unbelievable to realize that this is a same book I really hate to have it. The fact that it is a colorful book, don’t wanna move to fast to finish it. I’ve lot of time for it.
THIS OLD BOOK is likes a beautiful gift, have no meaning for people. But full meaning for me. Worth it to be mine, coz it been mine since years ago. YAY!!
Damn, I love it more that hate it before!!!
MY LOVELY BOOK ,,,, not only a book!!!

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ABI URANG SUNDA KEUR NYOBAAN NULIS MAKE BAHASA SUNDA (AUSKNNMBS)!

Samlikum,,
Neupangkeun sisi lain si QUEENIE yeh! Mmmhmmm, nyaeta si nyi-QUEENIE teh urang sunda uy! Trus? Nyaaaa ayeuna ek nyobaan nulis make bahasa sunda we atuuuh, meh ngabuktikeun bahasa sunda bisa diajakan gaulll, jiga bahasa2 lainna. (Hihi,, maksajeung ngaririeutdotcom)

First step nu lumayan muluss, even bahasana rada ancur! Hihi,, hampura aya keneh bahasa baratan, kusabab teu apal make kata naon nu alusna. (Weleh,,welehh,, dong dong dong nya?)

Bahasa sunda teh bahasa aslina orang jawa barat, tapi kadang dipake bahasa gaul oge ku luar jawa ('gede hulu' MODE ON). Bahasa sunda sorangan loba macamna, aya nu lemes jiga orang garut, aya oge nu rada kasar jiga orang bandung. Sedeng orang tasik mah campuran tidua eta. Ngarti teu? *Halah, asa maenkeun si cepot kieu*

Abi urang sunda keur nyobaan nulis make bahasa sunda (AUSKNNMBS). Tapi teu ngarti kudu nulis naon,, nulis bobodoran da lain si jojon, nulis sihir? Ayeuna geus teu zaman si heri puter, atawa nulis carita-carita budak awewe jeung lalaki jajadian dulurna drakula a.k.a vampire? Halahhh, it's iiiiimagination high level!!

Okehlahh, AUSKNNMBS nu titatadi hayang diajar nulis make bahasa sunda ayeuna rada rieut,, rieut da tulisan iyeu mun dipikir-pikir bulak balik belekok a.k.a euweuh ujungna.

Nu bisa ditarik kesimpulan nyaetan this is the first step for ME a.k.a AUSKNNMBS. Soalna bahasa sunda teh salah sahiji culture Indonesia nu kudu dijaga n dilestarikeun. Teu kalah unique jeung bahasa minang ato jawa gitu loooh! Bahasa nu jadi sapopoe rakyat saantero priangan timur. Bahasa nu nyirikeun orang Singaparna, lain Singapura, komo deui Malaysia,, ow ow ow awas ah bisi aya nu nge-klaim deui!

AUSKNNMBS titadi jujumpalikan nengan kata-kata lain da keukeuh hayang nulis make bahasa sunda ayeuna geus bener2 rieut,, rieut da bahasana geus mentok a.k.a empty!

Teu uyeh ya tulisanna?? Baelahhh,, minuhan blog we ahh,, yuuuhuuuu,, (sabodoteuing MODE ON)

Nya atuh, ngke disambung deui lah,,

Manggaaa aaaaahhh,,

X.O.X.O
Queenie bakal balik deui,,

Girl & Boy, The Next Step!

Everything’s looked like usual, boy and girl tried hard to enjoy they own world.
Girl, was busy herself with friends, learned something new (handle business on her-own… yeah the queen on the troane, raiiiiit!!). That’s so perfect world she have.
Then boy, he done lot of new things; games addict and found another new girl in his life to fill in the empty part inside. But deep in his heart, there was somethings never forget.

“Just hear some advice, move on, that’s life!!!”, one quote for both.

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At big room with a beautiful roof from wood in school reunion-ceremony, the atmosphere soooo crowded, lots of laugh, hugs n that’s a damncoolpreatty looks like.
Girl sitting on the blue chair with a glass of OCHA in her hand, looking so nice with a brown dress. And keep smilling when friends say “hi” or just shake hand.
In different side of the room, boy enjoys the sound with his old friends with his big laugh just for reminding about stupid-things they ever done at school last time.
While looking for some drink, boy see girl sitting on the blue chair. Girl he really missed.
Several minutes, boy keeps watching girl, and so surprising that girl catches his eyes finally.
Then boy walking to girl, even his heart sooooo friendless.
“Hey,, Do U mind if I sit here?”, boy with a calm-shit greeting he forces. A girl, try to keep smile,while she looks so awkward.
“Oh, sure,,just come”, girl answers.
“Here, the OCHA,,, Uhmm, as U like huh?”, then girl talk again with the glass he hold, over him.
“Mmhm,, big thanx! I really need it, so thirsty…”, boy talk and reach that cola, uups OCHA (lit bit different of taste!).
The atmosphere between girl n boy so different with people around, so warm and full of laugh. They looks cool-bad-shit atmosphere, without laugh and stupid-things story from the last.
“Where have U been?”, girl finally open her mouth, try hard to not looking her-side.
“Mhhmm, somewhere with someone, is it bad?”, he says with some joke he makes.
“Try to move on with my bored-life!”, boy correctly.
Silent..
“I’m empty, without U! Feels mad, sad and….. unconditionally cant life without U! funny, huh?”, girl grumbles.
“Yeaah, sad to hear,,, You're the one I wish I could forget!!”, boy says.
“There’re times for hating U even just for a while! And the fact that I’m happy for missing U, don’t really care with your respect! Now just wanna speak up! Thinks that not easy to forget, though u're not!!! Hard to belieeeevehhh!!”, girl talk with low voice, then she look him and smile. A beautiful smile she have.

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Boy and girl, sit on waiting room of car washing they first met. The ice have been melted, being something beautiful. Not too late to realize they need each other. Something unpredictable n not only makes them happy, but all of people around veeeeery happy. And YESS, THE FACT IS THEY CANT KEEP THEIR EYES OFF OF ONE EACH OTHER!

PS: hanya lucu2an with my ordinary IMAGINATION. Dengan kosa-kata n tata bahasa yang sangat dipaksakan! SILAHKAN AJA KALO ADA YANG MO PROTES *siap2 ngasah samurai*

PS: for my beloved boy, hihi,,, U KNOW I LUV Yeaaah!!

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ARRGH, THIS CRAZY MAN MAKES ME CRAZY,,!!

I really didn't know why, it's confusing to write something should be a beautiful moment! Yeaah, it's weird, but I'll keep try it! (Semangaaaaaat, Na!!).

I never been thinking that this is 'happen'! Something unpredictable about a man! Give something I really need before, something soooo un-usual that I even can't tell what is the un-usual I mean (halllahhh, sedikit membuat tanda-tanya! Haha).
"I hate to believe that all the man I know just come n go, they never cared what I really felt!", something I ever said last time!

Now, with a smile I say I'm happy to falling in L♡VE with this man, a man who ever thinks that I won't to spending time, a man who ever try hard to forget with all the stuff I have, a man who crush my defence to hate all the man in life, n for sure a man who I wanna talk all nite n allday! YAY!! (BERLEBIHAN ga si?? Hmmm,, kyknya memang terlalu didramatisir deh! Fiuuuh,,).

When people ask, "why?", mmmhm honestly it's complicated to tell n I did't know why I L♡VE this crazy man! Thinks that this man ever makes me crazy before, n (almost) makes me being someone that my family (n people) hate, for sure! (Haha, blaming U,,it's damn-cool thing I must say!! Fiuuuh,,).

Yess, the fact that this man makes me falling in L♡VE (again)!

PS: nulis ape curhat si ni? Halahhh,, but I like this fact!!

PS: thanx for be there, be!! ♥

X.O.X.O

LEBARAAAAAN,,, yay!!

MINAL AIDZIN WAL FAIDZIN, 1 Syawal 1430 H

suara takbir menggema di seluruh pelosok negeri bahkan dunia,, HARI KEMENANGAN telah datang dan seluruh muslim menyambutnya dengan suka cita.
LEBARAN kali ini memang lebih seru, seluruh keluarga kumpul di rumah!! nyekar n makan ketupat plus opor ayam! hmm,,, makasi atas nikmat ini!

malem takbiran bersama sahabat tercinta dan berkumpul bersama keluarga terkasih adalah kombinasi yang ga bisa dipisahkan dan sangat perfecto!! meski mempunyai part-nya masing2!! n i'll miss it,,





SEMOGA MASIH DIKASIH KESEMPETAN BISA NIKMATIN RAMADHAN N LEBARAN TAUN DEPAN!
AMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIN..


S E M A N G A T

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A LIFE WITHOUT ME

Ga pernah letih berkata “Don’t give up,, u’ll be ok!” to myself tentunya. Kadang malah gw share for keeping fight with everything. And hell yeaah, orang-orang akan berkata; “I’ll try to fight like U”. oh, my Gosh,,, kalo mereka tau, honestly I feel the same thing with them. Kalo gw juga kadang letih dengan semua kenyataan dan realita hidup. But I’ll keep it, n selalu berusaha menyemangati diri.
Bahwa manusia kadang lupa untuk mensyukuri apa yang Tuhan kasih, adalah benar. Gw yang hanya manusia hanya mencoba untuk bersabar dan ikhlas akan semua yang terjadi.

I’m not alone but feel lonely sometimes. Ada teman, sahabat dan keluarga, tapi jiwa ini selalu sepi dan masih sering membisikan “kenapa?”.
For sure, gw yakin kalo semuanya akan indah pada waktunya. Sampe seminggu yang lalu gw berpikir, “bahagiakah orang-orang kalo gw ga ada?”. Dan mulailah mencari alesan tentang “A life without ME”.
Ini bukan sikap “keputus-asaan”, lebih ke flash back tentang semua harapan yang semakin lama semakin menjauh. Kehidupan yang akan selalu baik-baik tanpa kehadiran gw. And family? Seems like they’re happy now!.

Okeh, honestly i hate boys. That’s the truth. Dan kenapa? bahwa jauh sebelum hari ini, ada 3 lelaki yang hidup dalam jiwa; ayah, adik n someone being a husband later. And amat sangat menyesal ketika 50% cinta gw for my beloved brother. A little brother I love more than hate him. Semuanya berubah ketika his fuckin’-unbelievable-married- dimana gw ga pernah sedikitpun tahu. So, that’s prove me that I’m nothing for him. Then I realize bahwa yeaaahhh I’m noooothiiiiiiiiing, even for a family who I love much!. Mmhm, I love my father, even he’s more love his son. And someone? Where is he?! Ugh, than I know that I hate them coz wont lose them n sangat takut ga pernah bisa berdiri ketika mereka meninggalkan gw. Sangat klise, dan seperti itulah kenyataan yang ada.

Yah, I am good dramaqueen. Semuanya berjalan seperti biasa-biasa (dari luar). Dan so unbelievable, bahwa sangat tidak biasa dalam diri ini.
Gw sendiri ga pernah ngerti, kalo semua ini memicu something inside of me. Taukah kalo rasa stress yang terpendam memunculkan sesuatu yang uniq? Ato mungkin cuma gw yang ngalamin. Huaaah.

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Hey,, this is ME. Real queenie. Bukan dramaqueen yang tadi berkeluh kesah ga jelas tentang kesepian, kebencian, keiklasan dan kehidupan. Mungkin semua itu sebagai suatu cara bahwa jiwa gw harus bebas. Tanpa ada teriakan “kenapa”. and I’ll try hard buat menyembuhkan jiwa yang semakin tertekan ini. And yeaaah, I wont hating guys! Even it hard,,
Thanx to Gilar yang memberikan sedikit gambaran bahwa hidup adalah anugerah n jalani yang ada dengan tanpa keterpaksaan. Inspiration me bahwa I wanna be a better person,, mulai mencintai kembali!!!

NOTE:
Mencoba menulis sesuatu yang menyemangati diri sendiri. Yeah, so complicated,, but I try to speak up!!.
I realize bahwa GOD loves me much, dengan semua kenyataan yang selalu datang. Seakan ini adalah ‘alarm’ for kedewasaan dan keiklasan. Sebuah pelajaran yang sangat sedikit gw ketahui n dicoba dinikmati.

Dan bahwa ketidakpuasan adalah hal yang wajar untuk setiap manusia... karena kehidupan ini bukan hanya sebuah imaginatif, so U gonna fight it!!